Asking Permission for sending healing.
So as I'm scrolling through my morning facebook check to see if I have any messages, one of the topics that catches my eye, is a question that I often hear, "Can I/You/We send healing to a person without their permission?"  A great question and I suppose the answer will depend upon our individual perspective and our trainings and what our teachers of holistic health taught us.  In my opinion though it is always NO, absolutly do not send anyone distant healing without their permission.  Please ask it is after all only manners.
But we can go through their higher selves, or their guides, or the universe and they won't accept it if it isn't for them, so why not just ask them?  This to me is superior thinking, of I know better than the individual person does.  If a person does not want healing they do not want healing, regardless of all our combined individual trainings.  Its a little like telling someone they should have a vodka when they don't want one. Smoke that cigarette it won't harm you.  Just a little bit of crack cocaine is good for you, try it.  "Belive you me wink, wink, I Know Best"  is the loud statement being made.  I also think with my shamanic, herbalist, reiki, mentoring training background that if you are sitting with this idea I know they need the healing they don't want to recieve, then you are power stealing, this is controling behaviour, that in truth you should take a look at long and hard.  Who made you judge and jury and God?  Why do we have to think we know what is best for a person.
We would be better asking our own guides what we can do to help, if its appropriate to help.  If we use the shamanic journey methods and someone is in a coma ask our guides how we help, only if a family member, husband, etc has asked us personaly to ask our guides.   Its understandable that we want immediate healing for our loved ones, our husband, child, partner wife, cat, bird, dog fish or plant, the list goes on.  But a quick facebook post and 20-150 people suddenly thinking they all know whats best via the higher self and the guides because the person said NO thanks, I don't want healing, if they were even asked that is,  so whooooooing along the magic  reiki fingers energy, or the shamanic extractions, power retrieval, soul retrieval and depossessions, in truth can send a person into harm and crisis rather than healing.  This has happened to me when I had my name put as a prayer for healing onto to a sweatlodge fire without my consent.  I was extremly ill and made much worse as around 20 people echoed back healing for Maggie.  I thought my kidney was going to explode, I was left in total agony for months, nearly a year in truth; until I went to Nepal and had a Shaman remove and heal what ever was needed. where was the healing in this so called prayer?  Granted this would not be what the people who echoed back a prayer of healing, wanted for me, at least I hope they only wanted my full health recovery; or was it more sinister really!!??  Hahahaa a person could get paranoid with the breach of free will. I actually felt more cursed than healed. Anyways in my pain I had to find the finaces to get to Nepal, would the person who disregarded my free will, like to pay me for that please. No I thought not.  Yet still no-one had actually asked me if i needed or wanted a prayer for healing, just took matters into their own hands.  This was and is rude and seriously disrespectful, where does a persons free will come into it.  I feel that its breaching a persons free choice, boundaries and free will. It is almost as if our sociopathic society has lost all morals as we blindly think we know what the person needs, what is best for each person.  In truth maybe we do know what is best and our guides know what is best, but only ego would be the one to overide the individuals choice. So does everyone elses guides think they  know best. Think about a time we have asked for advice with something that has bothered us, and each person we ask gives us a different opinion, imagine that on a healing level, enough to make my head spin more than the girl in the excorcist.
I know of a young girl of 15 who ended up in a psychiatric ward because she had too much energy running through her body, because she was given reiki healing.  I know of people who write up reiki programmes that seriously harm people and their physical, mental, spiritual, emotional well being, because they know best; or think they do and act without simple manners of asking permission, the moral disregard for an individual.  This is not love, or respect or even healing for a persons well being it is ego at best and black magic on the other end of the scale.  I had the young persons permission to work on her distantly and bring much needed grounding and practical advice to her, she did not have to spend to long in the ward.  I have worked with my guides for a person in a coma, and with the persons permission talked to them and given soul retrieval and advice that if they go any further they will not come back, meaning they will leave their body permanently by dying.  I was asked by a family member to give healing, I still had to journey and with my guides ask the person in the comas permission.  I have worked with babies to balance energy, I ask their permission, I work with animals again I ask their permission. I work with plants I ask their permission. I only get a big NO from my own cat, and I respect her for that even if I don't agree!! Hahahaha, I still respect her wisdom.  I do not go above her to her higher self, and her guides and the universe, or anything else, a little rainbow cloud with a golden light and a trumpet of arch angels, you need this healing! still she said NO. And No means No.  Respect this.
So again please think before we automatically send healing to someone without their permission....that does include putting their names on our altars, shrines, fire, firewalks, .. and yes I can already hear the but what about a child or coma person, or and or and or........... ask the person for permission please.  Thank you for reading. May our days be filled with joy and respect.
Well here I am supposedly doing my meditation practise to start up my day when I decided I would just check my emails and facebook first.  Very silly idea as an hour later here I am writing this.  So I got to reading comments about Core Shamanism, and how really hollow and new age and fake it all is.  This is quite upsetting as I have spent the last 10 years following that route, yet I have to admit there is truth in this also.  There are many many people out there just not caring about people, its all about the money.  So having also spent  somewhere along the lines of 20 thousand pounds for my training to be a shamanic practitioer and then shamanic teacher in Core Shamanism; I have been questioning very deeply, have I been ripped off?  Has my life changed really as a result of shamanism,  have I through my shamanic techniques helped anyone, (the testimonials on my website are real ones not made up by me to sell me; they say things have changed for them individually).  What can I say really people are intitled to their opinions.  Yet the truth of 'their is no protection' being shown people when they first start journeying is true , I speak about this often in my training of shamanism, (core shamanism that is by Sandra Ingerman that is ; mayhaps I want to call it something else).  When asked about protection the repeated phrase I heard given back to people was " if you fill with love and light nothing will harm you."  What love?  how can a person really honestly fill with love if they have never known love, its an alien concept straight away.  What light, stand under the electric lights?  I now have safety measures in, and repeatedly state them to people, then it is their choice to use it, when on thier own.  So within the shamanic practitioner training (again Core shamanism as by Sandra Ingerman) we work on where we dislike or outright hate ourselves. To be able to bring love and light into ourselves.  Fluffy maybe, but in my humble opinion we have to start loving or at least liking and respecting ourselves somewhere. I always have a chuckle to myself when people only want to learn the shamanic healing methods don't really want any healing on themselves unless for free of course, don't want to pay that amount but don't mind charging that amount, and no siree don't need to learn how to speak to people by doing wisdom of words, just teach me power retrieval and soul retieval and extraction many thanks, when do I start earning, oh when am I a shaman with a certificate to say so.  Thankfully on Sandra's Core shamanism there are no cetificates. Again the tools will be given to a person its up to them to have a look within, and do their work.  So on through the comments and it does get despairing mainly on how we in the west are not shamans, (rightly so we are in truth not shamans) not anything but fakers and takers really, in truth and full honesty I can relate to this opinion, I have been taken for a ride totally by those I have helped many who profess sincerely to be skint, give them a free shamanic session or ten, or for the whole family, only to hear what a wonderful holiday they had in some exotic place, yet I have not afforded a holiday even in Scotland.  Or they turn up at a shamanic course you are also on and wanted the funds to pay for, and sit beside you hoping you will again give them more freebies, ahhhh don't we just love the materialistic western mind set.  I hear what people are saying when they say they have been left really ill, lost and alone, all their spiritual shamanic buddies have suddenly disappeared looking for the next free sessions from someone who hasn't yet learned the lesson of self worth. Or your fellow shamanic practitioners that  say 'yes thats great book a session with me for £££ and all will be well.'  I began to dilike shamanic groups who would when ever someone was down, sad, lonely, lost or seriuosly ill, that almost monotonously robot like said " I will see you in your divine light" only to not bother once the words were written.   So with a deep breath and a sigh I think maybe its time to do something else for my spiritual path.  As I sit back and think about that, I don't have to think too deeply, so Spiritualism and mediumship, oh god lord no thank you the ego's and back stabbing.  Buddhism, lordy lord no thanks again, the ego's and the back stabbing, and add into that the dogma and " its your karma" thank you not for me in this lifetime.  Church well mmmmmm what would my granny have said about that, better not temp her visits from spirit. Wiccan, tried it they all hated men, so I come back around full circle if you like to shamanism and the fakers and takers along with the big ego's of I am the SHAMAN/priestess, magician/medium sage on and on so it goes.  So really where does that leave us here in the West.  In truth to me we can only do the best we can do, have a good look at our stuff try and be better people, look at the materalistic side especially, start to respect our selves, respect the Earth and research our chosen subject.  So I can now say I will be happiliy away to do my meditation, that was given to me from the Nepalese shaman I have the absolute honour of working with.  I thank the day he contacted me and started chatting, and I see that when the student is ready the teacher will show up, so I have my spiritual path of Nepalese Shamanism and I have my work to do.  Core shamanism can be and is a starting point for many many many people all over the world. So in earnest with integrity and sincerity I will do my best to state what real shamanism is in my teachings of core shamanism and ask for my ignorance and unknowing to be excused, you can say to me that is false, but come from a nice place, you don't have to throw psychic daggers along with it. Many thanks for reading.  May you walk in beauty and have a peaceful magical day.
It's been a busy few weeks, of training and teaching and being entertained.  I have met so many powerfilled beautiful women these last few weeks, and embraced their teachings.  Not to exclude men as I don't think that is appropriate, as they have in truth also been beaten down by our patriachail society.  In truth one of the many insights i have had over the last month is how certain family patterns have started with my maternal grandfather, who in truth I never knew personally.  He has always to me remained the guilty party to the chain of domestic abuse the family has been through.  Yet a few years back something shifted within on the inner tuition and I was led along to look at his PTSD behaviour from being in two world wars.  In fairness he probably never recovered from the first one let alone the second one, no wonder he drank and became abusive; in turn creating an abuse pattern for us to be healed.  I truly hope I am honouring the self healing of the family line via my own self healing, as always 7 generations backwards and 7 generations forwards.
So the first course i was on at the end of last month was bloody amazing for dealing with our inner grief, wounds and shame.  All this stuff we often deny or plain don't know that it even exists.  A beautiful heart filled soul nourishing lady of celtic descent led us through our paces and sang us home.  A true honour sadly for me she is no longer teaching, and  I  do love the subject of death and dying.  I met so many amazing people men and women who all embraced the deep inner wisdom of these teachings that were shared, who laid themselves open with courage, to honour themselves.
So a weekend with the grandchildren and on to my next amazing women who had a fabulous meditation in Glasgow we embraced our spiritual sides to heal our 12 strands of DNA, then we had a fun filled lunch of belly hurting laughs, what a true joy.  Then back to the first amazing woman who was singing in concert out in Govan, there she was singing heart lullabyes of true depth and many of us gathered had tears in our eyes as we were moved by the powerfilled words of her songs.  Meanwhile and very surreal where past meets the future or the real understanding that there is no such thing as time, a wedding celebration was taking place upstairs and I could hear the guitar thrumming of my once most favorite artist the lengendary David Bowie, singing Gene Genie.
I then went for coffee, well hot water in my case, with my friend and her husband and another friend who had been on the celtic death and dying course too.  We were very entertained by my friends husband who once upon a time was a stand up comedian, he had us laughing with story about a couple on a train who were so drunk the train had to be stooped whilst the police were called, to shifty them on.  
My following weekend led me into Behind the Masks where I was explaining how we merge shamanically.  Some more great music as we danced in our power animals and, ever delightful for me I was showing how I merge with a few of my guides, and to be witness to the difference in their energy.  This is a weekend course on the shamanic practitioner training, I was guided to write whilst going through food coaching sessions for bulimia, and comfort eating.  Sadly for me I'm still carrying the weight I wish to shed once and for all and keep it off.
Part of this discovery is that I am probably holding trauma within my body that I do not want to let go off, more likely do not want to know what trauma was created to encourage me to hold my body to storing all this extra padding of protection.  Sometimes, most times we do not need to know, we just need to let it go.  So I met up with another group of amazing women who worked as professionals with massage, psychotherapy and body work.  To learn a little about how trauma is stored in the body.  Also to experience how to move the body to release the trauma and let the story go.  Absolutly perfect, I do not need to witness the story again and again and again.  Just let it be and let it go.  So very happy days of releasing the stored story.  I am happy to say i have come a good distance from my sweatlodge day where I had a meltdown of fear and where I fisrt discovered you do not have to have been in the military to have PTSD, life and famillies can do that to us.  In truth I now laugh at this day especially the patronising people who came out of the sweat 4 hours latter and patted me on the head with words of condescending sympathies, "Poor you, I would have not liked to have been in your shoe"  "Must be such a shame to have missed the sweat" "You only lasted 15 mins, oh poor you"  "Poor you are you ok?" Hahaha guess they didn't hear the Native American Indian man leading the sweatlodges words to me, he popped his head out at the end of the second round prior to the third round to tell me to keep take it easy I had done a massive amount of work, more than everyone still in the lodge. Hhahaaha still makes me smile that.
I am also delighted to have Hollow Bone work coming up in which I'm hoping to deliver  the goodies on altar building, omen walks, and having fun.  All this before I then go and finally after many years re examine the Munay Ki rites I recieved a fair few years back.  I was going to learn how to transmit these last year and I pulled out one because I was so ill I was constantly exhausted, and two because so many people in western mind were disrespecting this gift from the Quero of Peru.  People in true typical western grred style were over charging for these rites, not doing the required work and in full being greedy and disrespectful, and I wanted no part of it.  So I will again meet with the amazing woman and review the rites and learn this time how to transfer them.  I trust I will do so with the heart intention of humility.  So although it has been a while since I blogged this is what I have been up too.  As always many thanks for your time and reading this.  Many blessings of love peace and laughter.
THE EQUINOX SHIFT  - Has it gone yet.
Well the spring equinox energy has been around for a while now, I was breezing it coming up to and on Equinox, yet the after effects have caught up with me.  Emotions are raw,  they were stuck in my throat the other day when I heard of a young girl being taken away from her mum after her mum had assulted her on mothers day because she was drunk.  I stood with tears in my eyes a huge lump in my throat and mouth quivering.  I'm always saddened to hear of children being harmed.  Even if it is their Karma to sort out. 
Then the emotions swing the other end of the pendulum and I want to go and shout in parliment and  tie myself to the gates as shout at the top of my lungs "You stupid bas**** cut down more trees, and ever more pillage the Earth for what ever she may have left, to wanting to concrete over ancient sites or plain place the motorway right beside  them.  Look at the f***ing oceans."  I can feel myself becoming bogged down and drowning in the stupidity of humankind and its pointless, mindless drive to destruction.  Lost and alone as everyone stares at their phone screens.  Angry at the ignorance of the local council just coming along and pulling up peoples trampolines and removing their washing lines without forewarning or asking permission, since when would anyone be alowed to do that to council property? The rage is rising like the tide pf plastic our fish are swallowing, the poison of the rivers from pollution and for what?  Oh lordy calm down dear.  A quick switch off of the trigger button to lets do a mantra for compasion change the rage energy.  I am indeed responsible for the energy I put out into the atmophere too. Like a big black cloud of toxic energy I can see spewing into the sky from Grangemouth.  I feel positively schizophrenic, (please don't tell my Doc I'm having another episode.) I sit in the laughing buddha bellied lotus position, and breathe Om Mani padme om.  I smile again as I watch the Crow who found a piece of bread sitting in the tree, I thank the tree for the air I breathe.  The sun shining on my face is warm and welcome, yet so are my thermals as the wind chill factor is freezing.
I feel vulnerable in the intensity of my emotions, the swinging of the pendulm to find balance in harmony eventually, maybe and maybe only briefly.  I am going to follow them today and allow this vulnerability to shine through.  Honour myself fully as the sadness and rage intermingle with the energy on the planet at the moment.  I read somewhere recently that the energy around feels like that of a battered woman, not the Earth herself just the energy that is about,  I understand that statement today.  Collectively these energies are passing through me, you, and everyone and I process them along with the laughter I had 2 minutes later as the school kids from about 4 or 5 classes  the funny faces they were making at each other to the silly walks all laughing and jovial going on their walk around the town, happy and free.  All to quickly we always want the none plesant emotions to move on. All to quickly we want to blame others for our emotions. Just for today I will surrender to this process and learn a little more depth of myself.  Live laugh cry and then dance and shake it off.  Its all part of being human so I'm told, but I'm an alien I whisper to myself.

Poundland Shaman.

After yet another article this week on Shamans, or actually people who have I think no idea about shamans or shamanism selling themselves as Shamans because quite frankly Shamanism is at an all time high of popularity. So from Rockstar Shaman to the rip off and abuse of the the sacred plant Auyahaushca in ceremonies and cruelty of the Kambo Frog Medicine for their poison,of which I know absolutly nothing;  next onto Udemy selling a course of Soul Retrieval training at a St Patrick Day discount for £12; normally, mmmm wait for the drum roll please, normally its only £75. All online was my understanding, and then to The Centre of Excellence also doing soul extraction! (gulp WTF is soul extraction? makes me tense up )  All for a very minimal price and well bless my soul you get a certificate so you can be insured to be let loose on Joe Public because the certificate and unethical online learning platforms, want to earn a buck or two. Seriously we need to look at this in our culture, where is the respect.  The respect of nature, the respect of a culture, the respect of indigeniuos peoples way of life.  The respect of ourselves.

So I kind of understand the sacred Auyahausca cermonies being ripped off by people so poor they have to earn a living, and the rich white westerners are willing to pay.  Yet I don't understand no care or concern for people who have had mental health issue or not have mental health issues wanting to experience the ceremony, then being able to stumble off and get left to die as a result. Or the many shamanic practitioners who are being contacted by people who have gone along to these ceremonies and ended up psychotic as a result.  Because the cermony hasn't been held properly by people who are not adequetly trained by the plant itself as the Amazionian jungle shamans would have been, for many many years is my limited understanding.  In truth I have only been once to the ceremony and it was held by a Amazionian Jungle Shaman who had to walk for 3 days until he connected with a path to come and do the ceremony. It was totally amazing I loved the singing of the sacred prayers more than anything, I wholeheartedly give my thanks and respect to the Auyausca plant medicine and the Amazionian Jungle Shaman.  I believe that the plant medicine of any sacred plant should be done in its Native country. I went with a group of people a spiritual shamanic trek of 3 weeks.  Over the years I have heard of many tales of people becoming extemely ill on these trips, to the point of near death.  Or ending up with massive spirit attachments of the very unpleasent kind, because the treking or training missed protection out, when asked about that the response is, "well if your are full of light nothing can harm you."  Unless of course the spirit is already there and you have already a very good understanding of being able to fill with light in the first place.  Not helpful if you are new to spiritual and or shamanic trainings.

People are being ripped off by very expensive holidays in the Jungle with fake Shamans, ending up extemely ill as a result for there £4,000 for a week or two;  or being sold DIY shamanic courses online. So in reality or my reality at least, if I do a £12 soul retrieval online course and get fecked over what should I do, turn to another poundland shaman to sort it? Or seek a real shaman? Are there any in the UK? Or a shamanic practitioner to sort it out. For free of course.  Would anyone seriously go and get their hair cut and dyed or styled by someone who had done an online course on hairdressing? For a few hours. How about trusting ourselves to an online trained and qualified, well they have a certificate, Dentist? Seriously can we see where this is heading, poundland hairdressing and poundland dentistry. The list and possiblities are endless. Hey presto I studied at an online learning platform and can now do major heart surgery, Its ok I have a certificate please come along I want to help on the cheap and you know NHS waiting times!! Sorry guys the same applies to each of us when it comes to doing training and being ethical and full of integrity to the best of our abilites. If we want a decent hair cut we go to those skilled at hair cutting, if we want teeth fixing we go to a skilled dentist.  This is where we have to take full responsibility for our decisions.  How about swimming lessons? I did an online  course because its cheaper?  Fancy having me teach you or your loved ones to swim?  No, now I wonder why that is.

There are some that say even 'Core Shamanism' is watered down shamanism akin to baby food, total mush. In truth I can't say it is or isn't. It has worked massively for me and probably saved my life, definatley my sanity, ( haha although that could be questionable too!)  This is the shamanic path I have been trained in, by Sandra Ingerman then on to her teacher training of 2 years and I'm on her practitioner list on her website.  I trained for 5 full days in soul retrieval none of it online, I supported the soul retrieval courses of 5 days a good 6 times I have taught it twice, given countless soul retrievals, and recieved many.  There is always more to learn and each person and session is different.  We can't baby people as they have to experience there own healing. Yet we can be responsible enough to get adequate training so we are not causing further harm to already vulnerable people. So if core shamanism can be considered baby food shamanism, by a few, then there to me would be absolutly no point in learning with Udemy or the Centre of Excellence, I have read this manual and its rubbish its only redeeming factor tells you to work with a real shaman.  If you can find one of course.  Next best thing a shamanic practitioner.  Who of course has been trained.

Perhaps its time to leave it all behind is my often thinking, get off the merry-go-round of marketing, hype, drams and BS. Yet it seems no matter where I turn there is this urgent need for people to get quick fixes at as little expense as possible. Like shopping in Poundland, less and less product for the £1 and more and more packaging.  Is this how we really want our health to be? Our lives to be.  Having people work on our traumas, hurts vulnerable issues and upsets that have trained in an online course that has honoured no-one or anything.  Time to get real we think we get what we pay for yet we don't really we have cons going on left right and centre, within the marketing world. Big hype, big lies and selling out of our soul, no wonder we need soul retievals now more than ever.  The it must be good because its £300 for an hour to the well its in my budget at £1.  We have to be respectful and discerning.  We have to have heart and intergrity for our selves, our indigeniuos people, our world, and our beautiful planet, and all its sentient beings, the animals the plants, the insects and the birds, the fish, the air, the water, the list is continuous.  Peace and blessing and thank you for your time to read this.  The birds are calling me to join them in the garden with the sun.


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